I just needed 20 hours of the desert in my face. I needed the joshua trees. The red cliffs. I needed the gorge. The abandoned water park. Baker's broken thermometer. I needed to feel water in the air-- 36 straight hours of hopelessly frizzy hair. A couple hours laying in the sand on the beach. A few sentences of To the Lighthouse. Hanging out with my mom. Pulling weeds for my dad.